FINALLY, I was able to order the new fitness program from Beachbody called Insanity. Honestly, the name is starting to freak me out a bit (isn't a lot of pushing yourself to the limit in the mind??? Why on earth would they choose a name that is intimidating?), but I am excited for the brown truck to pull up to deliver the package containing the Insanity collection!
I actually have pretty high hopes for this program. I am one of those fat skinny people that you see in America... I am 5' 9" and weight about 130 lbs, which sounds good, but I have love handles (ok, so it is more than that - I have the dreaded muffin top, which has only gotten worse since having 2 children despite my weight staying the same)... I have the dimpled skin on my thighs (where did that cellulite come from... I HATE my skin resembling an orange peel!)... my poor abs are just aching to be seen, but they are covered by inches of fat. I never thought it would be possible to be thin and a) feel so unhealthy and b) to not feel comfortable at all in a bikini. So, I am calling an all-out war on the body fat that seems to just "stick" around my mid-section... I did one round of ChaLean Extreme, which, honestly, I do think would work for me - by building the lean muscle w/less of an emphasis on the cardio and more on the lifting. But, I didn't stick to the diet plan and I started breaking out by midway through Phase II, which I suspect is from the increased testosterone or other hormonal imbalance playing a part (this happens to me anytime I start lifting... so, there's something there!). I pray that Insanity is the answer for me - with the focus on cardio and no weights!
In order to keep myself on track, I am going to be blogging each day about my work-out and nutritional intake. Not that I expect anyone to be reading this... this is for me. I am not a Beach Body coach... I am not some inspiring journalist... I am a stay-at-home-mother of 2 small boys looking to pave the way to a healthy future, not only for me, but for my family. I am trying to lead by example for their sake. So, away I go... writing down everything... forcing myself to set goals in black and white... forcing myself to log what I eat so that maybe, just maybe, I will be less tempted to stop by the ice cream shop or choose that greasy fast food cheeseburger when there are healthier options at the fast food joints.
I am no longer going to let the scale be my guide. It is only a small fraction of my overall well-being. My goal is to no longer be one of those fat skinny people walking around... I want to be healthy and strong... and most importantly, be the best mother and wife I can be for my family. I hope they will follow in my footsteps... but I need to lay that groundwork first so that they can follow.